" Cuz I'm Different "

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if I tell u the truth, would the world still be friendly?

if I tell my story, would u sit, listen and care?

if I fall from the sky, would u wanna catch me?

if I act silly, would u laugh at or with me?

if I'm drowning, would u lend me ur life jacket?

if life is to be praised, why do I feel guilty?

if their life is happy, then why my life is sad?

if ur friends are real, then why mine is not?

if u think u know me well, maybe u don't

if keep doing this, I just fool myself and my life

I've been learning my life well, should've known the answer since I was a child

I've been denying myself, million and million times

I've been living a lie, I just can't hold it anymore now
I've been questioning my life, which I don't really understand why
I've been singing everyday, but my love songs are different

I can smile like u, but my smile is fake

I can sing like u, but my voice is low

I can fall in love, but can never be happy

I can speak out loud, but thick walls are everywhere

I can only make my beloved cry and hurt deeply

I'm tired of being like this, maybe today's the right time for me

So here I am, standing nakedly in front of u all

No more hiding and pretending, cuz I'm sick of it already

I wanna be free from sadness, qualms, terrors, and bad dreams

Listen to me carefully, cus this story comes from my heart

So please hear my story, and accept me for who I am

If u don't like it, u can leave me, hate me, or stab me

My war is soon to be over, cuz I can see the finish line from here

A soundtrack of my life not urs, cuz I know I'm different

And in the end of the day, I just wanna be myself

Hobart, 5 Nov 2013